A Little Goes a Long… long… way…

12 07 2009

My first week of hospital duty had finally come into an end yesterday at around 1pm. And to be really honest, it was tough and toxic and tiring, but I was really really happy to be there! :)

The first day of handling a patient was the toughest. Any first day of first things that ever do in your life has always been the toughest right? I was still getting the hang of me being a nurse that should be taking care of my post operative patient that gave birth to a healthy baby girl through cesarean section. I was really lucky that she was nice, and her mother and husband too. I was really nervous to come inside their room for the first time! Imagine me standing in front of their room for about 2 minutes or so practicing what I’m supposed to say and actually preparing myself for the worst! LOL But everything turned out to be fine, and the next day she was already out of the hospital. :) And lucky me, everything happened to my next patient. :)

Oh, and let me tell you, the nurses there was nice as well, and they took us along to observe and do special procedures that we rendered ourselves!

First, the nurses thought me how to administer an NGT feeding.

Second, an orthopedic doctor thought us how to make a four solution for irrigation of severely infected wounds most commonly used for diabetic patients.

Third, I assisted in removing an indwelling catheter to a mother who had just given birth and rendered perennial care.

Fourth, my group mate tagged me along to her patient who was having blood transfusion and thought me how to regulate and attach it to an IV line. And her patient was an old man that was really really nice and sweet.

Fifth, the orthopedic doctor asked us to assist him in cleaning a diabetic foot that actually left my group mates’ mouths open.

Also, I have learned a lot of things about myself and about life.

I have never really thought that I would do good in making conversations to people I don’t know. To be honest, some of my classmates actually thinks that I am an antisocial kind of person, though I’m just not used of talking or chatting with not so close friends and all. Though to patients in the hospital, I was really good. Maybe I should tell my classmates to become patients so I will talk to them just the same? LOL

Though, what amazes me the most is how much appreciative people can be. When you ask them how they are feeling, or when you just touch them, or just give a smile, and tell them to get better, you would see in their faces, especially in their eyes, that you made them happy, like you are the most caring persoon in the world! And the next time you enter into the room, you would be surprised that the patient was already waiting for you to come. :)

I have learned that in life you just have to have compassion, to care for the people who needs you, and be just human. Sometimes, when you can do nothing to alleviate their pain or condition, just being there makes everything alright. You don’t have to move mountains to touch the lives of people, you just have to have a heart, and a little of it goes a long, long way! :)





Piapot in white – and I mean White!

7 07 2009

Today will be the last day of my ordinary life as an ordinary student and as an ordinary person – because about 2pm today here in the Philippines, one of the most precious possession I am waiting for will be mine…

Today is my capping day, and I am very happy to have made it through three years of torture education that turned my neurons to dust and straighten my noodles to make them work and be able to acquire and learn the things I have to do and have to know to be the best for every patient under my care as a student nurse. I know we are not going to be able to do some stuffs as registered nurses, but atleast I would be able to take a peek on what it is like to become one. And honestly, I am very very excited about that fact and a little nervous too! :)

When I told my fried about this, he said that I was afraid to fail and was not excited at all, that bothered me a little, though to think it over, I was afraid to fail, terrified honestly to not be able to do my job for those who need it. I am afraid not to be a good nurse for a patient who needs me. And I am afraid  most to not serve my purpose.

Today is my day! The countdown is on… At 2pm, Piapot will be in white! :)





Much Ado About Nothing

20 11 2008

Idealism – (n.) a belief in and pursuit of perfection as an attainable goal.

I have always believed that what’s ideal is always the good to be achieved, but within the span of five months under the first semester of Level II BSN course, these days, I never actually thought of the fact that idealism can also be something relative.

No, I have nothing against seeking perfection, neither am I someone desperate about the fact, but what drove my interest in this, specifically in my field of study, is because I have bumped into this word more often than usual in most of my subjects on a case to case basis.

Frankly, the phrase “this is what’s ideal” have gained its popularity inside my brain as of being part of our everyday lectures given by most of my professors everyday. And what really bothers me most from this typical line is the fact that nowadays, idealism in the sense of noble medical services, is only written in the pages of my thick and heavy text books plus the numerous sheets of photocopied materials that I am supposed to read.

I remember some instances in one of my major subjects, my clinical instructor would start a good lecture that would last for a couple of hours, talking about what’s ideal in our soon to be profession. Guidelines, the pros and cons, what should be done and what shouldn’t, what is needed, and the likes… But oftentimes, in between topics of facilities and medical equipment, a burst of laughter is often heard, may it be because of an ‘un’-inflatable Kelly pad, or a non-folding’-folding bed, or a wheeled bed that doesn’t move, where improvised materials and equipment is used due to lack of it or worse, doesn’t have any of it. Sometimes my professors would joke around saying “wag kayong maghahanap niyan sa ospital ha, lalo na sa mga public hospitals natin ha? Sasabunutan kayo ng C.I. niyo, lalo na pag nagreklamo kayo. This is only the ideal, you have to know that,” and there it goes again.

In one of our discussions in my subject of Health Ethics, my professor told us about the goal of the government in giving the ‘minimum’ health needs of every individual here in our country, the most basic kind of medical service offered as to be the ‘ideal’ target. But further in the discussion and as of any observant, even the least and the minimum health services are hardly attained.

In the Philippine context, where the state of economy has always been under crises and trials, the state of health in our society is understandable. The lack of facilities, lack of employees, lack of knowledge about new gadgets and machines, and most lack of funding to support the welfare if every patient especially in Provincial hospitals, these are just few instances present today in reality that if you think about it, is really something pitiful. And in this kind of environment, the ideal medical service will only be just ‘the ideal’ for the many who can’t afford to pay for it.

I do understand the reasons behind the insufficient claims of health professionals in giving due service, because if you think about it yourself, how can medical institutions provide the needs of the growing number of Filipinos when their own needs are not sustained as well? Indeed it is quite ironic.

But i guess it all doesn’t just end there. For in another depressing reality of idealism these days are hitting the ethical principles of the nursing profession. Nurses have always been known to be noble individuals who chose to help save lives and ease the pain and illness of any suffering individual, the people who give utmost care and concern to the welfare if his patient, but today, these noble deed and service are just becoming part of my curriculum.

When this topic emerged in my Ethics class, I am somewhat alarmed, confused and frustrated to see what lies behind most of the men and women in white uniforms walking along corridors of the hospitals. Somehow, I guess there will always be exceptions to any rule, but to have that exception to treat people badly especially patients, relatives of the patients, co-workers and the likes, are just too much. To put it simply, upon discussing about the ideal virtues a nurse should possess, it all ended up with my instructor telling us, “nakikita niyo pa ba to class?” Oh pity.

I guess there will always be those individuals who chose this profession for the indemand job opportunities, who actually aspired for this profession for money, and took the utmost responsibility of care as the ideals of nursing for granted. I remember one scenario when my mother’s friend knew I am taking up nursing, she actually blurted out “I hope you’ll be nice to your patients when you start to work.” Another, in a hospital situation, my sister was on her graveyard duty, and actually was scandalized to see how ill some nurses treat patients, say like asking a pregnant patient of personal informations who happens to be in labor in an unlikely manner, “Kelan ho ba ang LMP niyo?” and when the mother couldn’t remember (as if she could think when her stomach is aching like hell!), the nurse went like this with a tone not far from shouting, “Ano ba naman ho yan? Simpleng bagay lang hindi niyo pa alam.” Another story, when my sister got confined in a private hospital, my mom asked me to ask for some meds in the nurse’s station because she’s complaining of pain again. And when i did ask for it, what i got as an answer in an irritating tone was “walang binigay na gamot eh. Tsaka kung meron naman ibibigay naman yun eh.” You should have seen my face. I really lost my temper, but i did answer in the most polite way i could. “Di ba nurse ka? trabaho mo yan. Just a suggestion, if you don’t like your job, i guess you should start to find a new one.”

Please. So much ado for the ideals of nursing ethics. Idealism is a pursuit of perfection we should all be aiming for. The effects of physical shortcomings like insufficiencies in medical equipments, facilities and other materials are all understandable. But, the ideals of having a heart of a nurse is something that no material limits can bound. But i guess at this point in time, the hindrance if achieving the ideals in the nursing profession lies in an open heart that is willing to serve.