Sirang Relo

Leaving…

Waiting…

Coming…

Hoping…

Surprised…

Alone…

Confused…

Betrayed…

Again…

And again…

Waiting…

And waiting…

The First Time I loved Forever

The First Time I Loved Forever

Lyrics by Melanie Safka

The first time i loved forever

was when you whispered my name

and i knew at once you loved me

for the me of who I am

The first time i loved forever

I cast all else aside

and i bid my heart to follow

be there no more need to hide

And if wishes and dreams are merely for children

and if love’s a tale for fools

I’ll live the dream with you

For all my life and forever

is the truth i will always know

when my world divides and shutters

your love is where i’ll go

* I’ve been busy because of hell month in my studies…. and i had to work on two videos as my final exams for two subjects… so that’s what keeping me away from my beloved blog… and my mind out of blogging… but what the heck, after this day, i’ll be back on track! hahaha this song, I really do love, when i saw this photo from the friendster account of our resort, it’s the first thing that came to my mind.

here’s the song by Lisa Angelle…

Piapot confesses…

When i was a little kid, during my elementary years, most of my classmates bullied me around. For some reason, they find me sort of like irritating to their eyes – they’ve hated me. Often times, when I get to play with them, they act so friendly and nice, like bff’s and true friends do… when its like this, i was very happy; but when i turned my back, i’ve found out they say mean things about me almost every time.

As a child, i always ask my mom if there’s something wrong with me that’s why they don’t like me. Sometimes, i would cry in bed thinking i wasn’t good enough to be their friend. The next morning, when i rise in bed with my puffy eyes and runny nose as red as Rudolf’s, my mother would hug me tight, take me in her lap and say: “Naiingit kasi sila sayo anak, kasi wala sila ng mga bagay na meron ka.” [They envy you because they don't have what you already have.]

I remember one instant that the group of girls in my class joined together against me. There was only 18 students in our class then, 11 boys, 6 girls, and me. You can imagine how hard that was. I was sitting in my chair, writing on my notebook when this girl just came out of the blue ditching me in their circle of conversation. She wanted me to hear every word she says, most of them all lies. I can even remember her telling i cheated on one of our quizzes, when all along she passed because i let her copied my answers. I sat quietly, pretending i wasn’t listening, then tears just flow silently on my cheeks. I didn’t say anything bad about them, i didn’t call them names, i didn’t burst in anger, i never fought back. Why? Because i didn’t want to be like them, becuase since then I’ve accepted that I’m different, because on that day I know I am something way better than telling lies and envying other people. I was 8.

My childhood days were not that pretty. To experience such in a young age was a struggle. It was hard and painful to be in a group of children who doesn’t want to play with you, say mean things about you and call you names without even doing anything wrong. It was like I am goldfish swimming in the deepest waters of the sea with sharks all eying on me. It seems that everybody hates you, just because your good, and you can’t do anything about it. I was an honor student, a love child, and came from a known family that is always there for me. Maybe that’s the reason they’ve hated me, i don’t know exactly.

I didn’t have a lot friends as a child, but one thing i’ve learned, and learned it the hard way, is to stand firm. Not everybody will love you, and like you even the least, but what you have to keep in mind all the time is that they have no right to pull you down. And this time there is only one way for me but up!

Tranquility and the River of Tears

I found her lying on the floor, she was crying for my surprise.

I heard no sobs, no screams, no pleading, no signs of pain from her precious lips.

Her eyes were closed the moment i found her.

Tears are flowing down her rosy cheecks.

I moved closer… and closer…

but when my fingers are just an inch away from her long brown hair,

I hesitated to touch her.

She was beautiful, she was precious, too precious for me to hold.

Her almond eyes were still closed,

but now tears are rushing madly down her innocent face.

There was no agony, no pain to see;

no anguish, no fury nor anger in her state of silence.

A river of tears is unfolding from the darkness.

Her eyes were just closed, in silence tears are silently flowing.

Her face is now at peace.

And in the midst of the deafening solitude,

she opened her eyes…

and to my surprise…

so did I.

Insights from Kung Fu Panda

I was definitely struck by Po’s awesomeness!=)

Have you ever watched Kung Fu Panda? If you haven’t, you are missing half of your life!!!! It’s actually a story about this huge, fat, and clumsy panda named Po who loves Kung Fu, and God he is really pure awesomeness!

You know what is wrong with this world is that people take things too seriously.  So when things end up not the way we ought it to, that is when it hit us hard. And just to shed some light in your whining states and regretting moments, here are some great lines from Po’s journey in the Jade Palace:

“There are no accidents. “

“There is no good or bad news, just news.”

“You can not control that peach seed from sprouting. You may ask for an apple or an orange, but what you will have is a peach.”

“There is no secret ingredient. To have something special, you just have to believe it’s special.”

Spend time thinking about these lines and i tell you it’s all worth it. These may just come from a panda, or a goose, or a turtle, or a raccoon, but i tell you they can mean a lot. Besides, great things need not come from big people and big happenings. Life is something lived everyday. And the greatest surprises in this world don’t often come gift wrapped!